Saturday, April 17, 2010

I hate it the days I miss Canyon.

At least it isn't Charlie, for once.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Oh noes, forgive me!

Why haven't I posted?

I moved to my gma's old haus, so I haven't had internet. My phone is also fucked up, so I can't even get on half the shit I need to.

Dustin finally came to see me after 11 years of knowing him and I couldn't be more excited. I really, really hope that he stays in Richmond so we can finally be close enough to not have to 1, 2, 3 videos.

In other news, Charlie will not go away in my dreams. In some form or fashion he is in there. He's been there to take me back, marry me, dump me, cheat on me, and everything else under the sun. I haven't been depressed about him during those days where he has been in my dreams except one, so I don't understand.

Here's to a good night's sleep, WITHOUT HIM.

Thursday, April 1, 2010


Blog Every Day April has arrived, again.


Idk, I am going to try.

I went to class today even though almost everybody skipped... which I could see why, it was a beautiful day. I almost skipped myself to go to Busch Gardens with Emily.

Blahblah etc... erm.

I was walking into Walgreens and... Charlie was just in front of me. My heart raced like crazy, I couldn't breathe for a minute... and I'm over it.

April Fools.

I feel like dying. I am trying REALLY hard not to over react, but I fucking bawled my eyes out in the car. I am helpless.

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Year's Firsts

Song playing to ring in the new year: Lady Gaga "Just Dance"

First ass beating: Kris

First kiss [just a peck]: Kris

First YouTube video played: Glee flashmob

First Facebook update: "Going to workies..."

First time being late for work: Today.

Monday, November 23, 2009

I'm at the point to where what I feel is too embarassing or emotional to even type out in a blog.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

So yeah... of course a lot has happened. It's like that every day. I mean, hell, I got a phone number from a guy at Wafflehouse! Not Tristian, but... yeah. Anyway.

Side note -- I just realized, it's nothing but guys at Durmstrang, and nothing but girls in Beauxbatons. ANYWAY.

I'm glad I've started to hang out more with Molly, Alex and Jane. I need more... positive and nice people in my life. I don't know if I should still hang out with Cory -- I mean, he tells Scarlett EVERYTHING I say/do... which I called him out on it before and he did the whole "Cory apologize" thing where he really doesn't mean it.

Buh, I had a lot more to type up but I have work, and got distracted by Harry Potter...

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

A month, again. I know, I know.

So much has happened it's crazy.

Well I think we all knew that Scarlett would start to get paranoid once I started to chill with Charlie again... and sure enough, she basically went crazy. Charlie lead me on, AGAIN. No big surprise there, either. He lead me on, stopped talking for me for about a week and then of course he pull the shit of, "i'm just jokin" bullshit. I was seriously hurt by it. Now it's back to him not talking to me and him and Scarlett argue every. day. No one still understands why he chose her instead of me... but you know, if he were such a great guy, him and I would still be together.

Nik pulled a fast one and broke up with Emily over something really stupid. Long story short: she got rid of some trash, and hopefully for good. I let her borrow my book, whch I need to certainly read again, and it's helped her a lot. I'm super happy for her but feel for her at the same time. Break ups really suck, especially if it's in a circle of friends... and there's already a divide. I can't hang out with Charlie and Scarlett anywhere. Emily can't hang out if Nik is around. SO since Charlie likes to smoke with Nik, and Scarlett won't leave Charlie by himself to basically pee... AND Nik's house is the main hang out... kinda leaves me and Emily out. I certainly enjoy Emily's company, it just sucks to have to be out of the loop when something's going down. Like, 4th of July is coming up... and everyone is going to want to chill. I want to go buy fireworks for the event but if Nik is there, Emily won't chill. If Scarlett and Charlie are there, I won't chill. Also, Scarlett won't keep her damn mouth shut... neither will Charlie. AND Jackson comes back this weekend... my head's spinning.