Wow. Uhm, not posted in 20 days. Go Jess!

Well erm... ok... listing bits:

-- Being hooked up by one of Scarlett's friends... uhh yeah.
-- Her and I are OK with eachother and can laugh once again
-- Charlie made the unecessary comment about not fucking up this boy, making me cry
-- Daniel is now dating someone else
-- Josh still likes me I suppose
-- I've talked to Chris about as much as Billy
-- Ashe comes home Friday! YAY!
-- Cory got a new job and I'm super jealous...
-- Bri quit again, so now I'm pushin 40 hrs again. Fat paycheck for the con FTW.
-- Started playing WoW more with Terald and this new guy Jim at work
-- The guy Scarlett introduced me to... David... he's a nerdy type, and asian. That's all I really know about him right now and that's ok.
-- HES NEVER BEEN KISSED OMG WHUT
-- I'm super lovin Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus right now

I think I made a mistake by kissing Daniel. I don't like him. I did it because he wanted to so badly.

Josh? Billy. That's all I have to say.

So now I am alone. And I want to cry. But I can't. I'm pissed. Frustrated. My love life is a dead end.

I'm so done.

HOLY. SHIT.

Just but a month ago I met Chris... and he called today, reminding me of the party. That was a little bit like OMG-ish.

Then Celia texted me all like... well, exactly: OMG HAVE STUFF ABOUT CHRIS TO TELL YOU.

Of course I instantly think bad things. Like he has a 2nd wife. Or he has the herpily-derpilies.

Oh no... first thing... "Yeah so his wife told me that he wouldn't stop talking about you." OH. MY. GOD. WHAT?! She went on about how his wife is chill with me... and how Chris has been depressed that I haven't called. Of course now all my mentality about dating is all, "If he wants to talk to me, he will call. He will make it happen." Also the whole wife thing did freak me out a bit and Celia told her that. Chris' wife said that she WANTS him to have a girlfriend, and for that to be ME. This is like... the best news I've ever heard in a LONG time. The whole poly thing still makes me sad because I know I can't ever like... "bring him home to mom" or anything, or have a serious relationship. Ugh. I don't know if I should... dive into this or... be single. AGH.

But I'm super excited.

I just realized most of my posts start with, "Yeah, so..." Weak.

So I had a small intervention from Cory and a tiny bit of James last night. Cory said he was tired of seeing me hurt from Charlie and Scarlett. He just... doesn't understand. I tried to give James an example but he just kinda said, "Well that's her issue." No. If he went through with what I did he, he would know. I hate making excuses for myself but it is how it is. I just sat here and bawled my brains out for the past hour. Its not easy, and I've tried soooo hard. For a while I was kind of just like, "Whatever." Then she started coming in the store again and Charlie stopped talking to me for a bit. I was FINE.

Then today I get a text from Scarlett... of course... 3 pages long, saying she doesn't do it on purpose. Of course Cory had to go ask her. OF COURSE SHE ISNT GUNNA FLAT OUT SAY WHAT A STUPID BITCH SHE IS. Dear lord.

Yeah so... haven't posted... been meaning to... psh.

Basically, finished Sloppy First and got Second Helpings last night. I LOOVEE ITTTT. I haven't been this excited about a book in a long time.

I had off yesterday so I went with Celia and Kyle to Walmart and sushi. Came home, hung out with Cory, Jon and James. I told Cory that I had a thing for Jon... and he dropped it every 10 seconds. "Oh, you two should date~" "You two are doing the couple thing!" etc etc. My whore ass wore shorts and under I wore my garter and stockings... I felt hot. I wasn't doing it to impress Jon or, anything like that. I just felt like being sexy.

Charlie and Scarlett came in my store the other day... ugh. Of course I try and stay away from them. They were in another line, then the line I was bagging for was to the asiles but they didn't go to the other clear lines. And people say that she doesn't try to start shit. She def does. Then James came in to distract me while they were being rung up next to me. He went and said hi, then came directly back. Scarlett said, "BYE JAMES!!!!!!" as loud as she could. I'm like... yeah. You haven't changed at all, you stupid fucking slut. Anyhow. When I saw them... my heart started racing a thousand miles an hour. Maybe more. I just died a bit inside. Then later on that day... I read two notes from Charlie that were stuck in my purse. I wanted to cry so hard.

I must haul dick to work... even though I WOULD SO RATHER be reading Slopping Firsts. Oh well. I think I have off tomorrow at least?